Trust...

Being in a relationship is hard...especially when you're continuously doubting your trust in the other person. Why is it so hard to commit to one person? Why is it so hard to respect your partner in the relationship? If you really love someone, why do things to question it?

If I met someone today, gave them my number, and starting talking to them on a regular basis showing extreme interest...would you have a problem with that? I THINK SO! So why put me through it thinking i wont find out...I do believe in a woman's intuition and I think I'm right that my trust in you should probably be questioned. I don't like to be lied to or blatantly disrespected in the comfort of my own home as you put your phone on silent trying to secretly text. I know the game...it's not new. If you wouldn't like for me to flirt with someone, then why are you doing it? Why do you think everything is ok as long as you don't have sex with her? The way I see it...all of your actions are just leading up to when you will eventually have sex.

Can anyone relate? I guess its true that a good man is hard to find. I could be trippin and thinkin about the situation too hard but i doubt it. I just wish he could be in my shoes right now...

I guess what im trying to say is that the person I thought would be the love of my life actually might not be...and it hurts so bad right now

Random Act of Kindness...

Love come down...?

Damn i miss college...lol...those were the damn days.

But anyway, there's this guy that's been on my mind alot lately...i know, awww right? lol...but the bad part is i actually had him once and pretty much phucked it up...i'll admit to it...damn! I haven't been in a serious relationship in a couple of years...been approached by alot but they just didn't have that wow factor. What's the wow factor you ask...well it's just me being interested back and actually taking the time to actually kick it and get to know them. I've been on quite a few dates but it pretty much ended there.

Distance kills everything! lol...me and long distance relationships don't get along. First, i'm not much of a phone person...so if i gotta talk to you on the phone all day and not actually get to see you...we have a problem! Second, i believe in that "grow apart" shit...sometimes when you're around people other than the spouse, your mind starts wandering...if i'm apart from somebody too long i get frustrated and unfortunately the attitude will come out...when that happens we can pretty much call it quits.

But, i'm keepin hope alive...lol...i don't like to look back but if someone from the past was to come back around, i might be willing to give it another go around. I'm a lil older and wiser now...and appreciate things a lil better now too. But no tellin who that right one will be...only time will tell...

I got kinda personal on this one...just keepin it 100